Graduation is Near

Dear Mom,

I’ll be honest, I will miss writing to you every week. I’ve found it to be very therapeutic and it’s helped me a ton. I know one day I’ll look back at all of these and be incredibly proud of how far I’ve come and how much I’ve grown since writing them. I’ve already grown so much since starting to write. Maybe I’ll continue to write when I miss you, remember something, or see something that reminds me of you. I want to keep your memory alive.


You’d be excited though because it’s official! I’m graduating in 11 days! I am excited but I’m also really not ready to graduate. It’s really starting to set in that I won’t be coming back and it’s hitting me hard. This past Saturday I took graduation pictures with my roommates and they turned out so cute. I included one for you to see. I know if you were here you would love them and send them to everyone you know. 


Taking those pictures really made me miss being on campus though. Bradley has become my home away from home. It’s given me numerous friendships, memories, and favorite spots. I’ll miss the crab rangoons from Thanh Linh and the way the city smells like yeast. I’ll miss hammocking on the quad with my friends that became family. I’ll even miss the chicken club quesadilla from Moe’s. I will miss it all.


It’s also starting to hit me that you won’t be here for my graduation, or anything for that matter. Everything is starting to set in and I’m not sure how to fully process this change. I’ve had my Peoria house to escape to, but since I’ll be moving home after graduation, I’m a little nervous to live in that house without you. I’m sure it will feel empty without you but I’ll try my best. 


Love always,

Lacey 

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