I Saw a Cardinal

Dear Mom,

This week has been incredibly difficult. I had a presentation of a case study on Monday for ML 452, my executive summary was due at 8am this morning, my entire capstone project is due today, and I have a bunch of other homework assignments. To top it all off my last three Amazon orders have been messed up. 


You know how much I love Amazon and that just hits deep. The first item to go horribly wrong was my graduation dress. It came in but it was the wrong size. If it was a little off I could have made do but this dress was twice the size of me and I was absolutely swimming in it. I didn’t realize that it was a third party seller and the company put up a fight and did not want to allow me to return it. I did not back down because I was so annoyed and eventually they refunded my money. Thank goodness. 


The next day my package said it was delivered and it was nowhere to be found. I contacted customer service and they said to give it 24 hours because it could have been falsely scanned. Sure enough, the next day it was sitting on my porch. Thank goodness.


Finally, after all the added stress this caused I decided to buy myself something off my wishlist. I have been wanting a blush colored Comfy for YEARS. I found one from an Amazon Warehouse so I felt good about giving a product a second chance. Well I was mistaken. They sent me the wrong product once again. I received grey. Thankfully, I love the color grey but I paid a little extra to get the blush one and I was really annoyed at this point. So I did something I never do… I called customer service. 


I spoke with a nice gentleman and I politely went off on telling him my disappointment because I am such a loyal customer. Well to my surprise, Amazon had a system error and so I left my phone number for them to call me back. A few hours later I got a call while I was driving to Taco Bell for comfort food. During this call I saw a cardinal. I started crying instantly. When you passed I asked for a cardinal as a sign that you were looking over me. Yesterday was the worst day since your passing and seeing that cardinal instantly shifted my mood.


Keldon refunded my money and let me keep the grey one. My amazing professor extended a deadline. I found a super cute sweater on sale at Target. I got an update from the mortgage company that they are looking over my portfolio. AND I had Taco Bell. Despite the whirlwind of emotions, seeing that cardinal reminded me of you because you loved birds. I really needed that and it wouldn’t surprise me if you somehow made it happen. This week was hard and I know there are hard weeks to come, but life is good. 


Love always,

Lacey







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  1. Libby HoudekApril 21, 2021 at 10:07 AM

    I think that it's really sweet that you're keeping a blog as a way to write to your mom every week even though she has passed on. I bet that it's really therapeutic for you in many ways and gives you a way to still feel connected with her. It makes me want to try something similar for my grandmother, who passed away several years ago now.

    Also, I fully support going to TBell for comfort food! One of my personal favorite things to get is the chicken quesadilla with extra chipotle sauce and a couple packets of hot sauce. Call me crazy, but sometimes spicy food is so satisfying when I'm stressed.

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