It's Been Two Months
Dear Mom,
It’s been a hard two months without you. It feels like forever and yesterday all at the same time. The phone call I had been dreading will forever stick with me, but I want you to know that I will be alright. I know that you were in a lot of pain and fought for as long as you could. You taught me a lot about strength and that is something that will get me through this. I keep reminding myself that the pain will lessen and good days will come. I am writing this blog to keep you updated on our lives. Maybe to bring some closure and maybe to help some others who are mourning the loss of a parent.
You’ve missed a lot of life updates in these past two months so I’ll give you a quick rundown. Liv got engaged to Piotr and is planning her wedding for September. Laurie bought a new house in Denver and has a big backyard for Stella. Lisa’s boys went back to school and are able to attend in-person classes. Dad got his first covid-19 vaccine so you don’t have to worry about him as much. Jake turned 13 and it hasn’t hit us that he’s a teenager yet but I know it will. I got a verbal job offer to do social media marketing for a mortgage company in Elmhurst, but I am still working out the details. Joey and I almost adopted a dog named Cooper but he found another loving family. I managed to get a 4.0 last semester, despite everything, and I recently started my last semester at Bradley. I declared a social media concentration and applied to graduate. There were some pretty great Bernie memes that you would have loved.
Despite all these momentous events, nothing is the same without you. I wish you were here to see Liv get married and Laurie buy her first house. I wish you were here when I jumped for joy after receiving my first job offer. Everything difficult in my life has shaped me into the person I am but nothing could have prepared me for your premature death. I want you to know that I tried as hard as I could to make it there in time, and it will forever haunt me that I was not able to say goodbye. I hope this blog makes up for it all.
Much love,
Lacey
Here is a Bernie meme you would have loved.
Lacey, I know this doesn't count as my weekly comment for class since this blog is from last week (and I don't want or need it to to be completely honest), but I want to say that your blog is very inspiring and brought me to tears on the first read. I can't imagine all of the different emotions and pain you are going through but this was very deep and vulnerable of you to post so I know that must have taken alot. Especially to put all of your emotions into words for the world to see and I know your mom would be so proud of you. I am without a doubt following along with your blog each week and hearing everything you say. I want you to know I got your back if you ever need anything -I am here! Keep being the strong, resilient, amazing and inspiring person you are.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Chloe! I thought it would be a nice way to help life feel a little more normal if that makes sense. I look forward to writing more blog posts. I am so appreciative to have you in my life!
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