Dear Mom

 Dear Mom, This has been another hard week. It’s starting to feel like every week might be difficult at this rate. I know it won’t always be like this, don't worry. I will be okay and I will not lose sight of that. I thought that I was doing pretty well for the circumstances thrown my way, but it will take time. I need to take that time to myself. This week I’ve realized that you cannot rush grieving. Especially grieving the death of someone so close to you. My friend Alyssa really helped me realize this. I did not grasp how much of my energy I’ve been giving to everything except grieving. I’ve been focused on my six classes, my four group projects, my internship, my digital marketing position, my sorority, my relationship, my friendships, and everything other than me. I’ve started having nightmares and I’ve lost the ability to sleep for more than two hours at a time. It’s exhausting and I constantly feel drained. I’ve started feeling guilty for the days life feels normal without y...

Dear Mom, I’m not going to lie. I’ve had a very very bad week. I went into this blog assignment hoping to write about the good things to make myself feel better about everything. This week just does not call for that.  For starters, we had another death in the family. For personal reasons, I won’t broadcast it over the internet because others have not found out yet. I hope you guys are catching up and you are showing him the ropes- whatever those ropes may be.  Secondly, I haven’t been feeling well recently, which during Covid-19 is a very scary thing. I haven’t been around people though so I wasn’t too worried. I did, however, become worried when I noticed a GIANT lump behind my ear. Luckily, the giant lump just turned out to be a swollen lymph node caused by me ignoring my ear infection. Whoops. To be honest I was scared to get it checked out because last time I thought I had an ear infection I didn’t and the nurse kinda laughed at me. You were not happy when I told you that...

  Dear Mom, I have some more life updates for you! Nothing too big or exciting but a lot of little things that you would have enjoyed. Diggs rediscovered the orange ball you bought him a few months ago and he hasn’t left its side. I think it might be his new favorite thing but it’s hard to say because you know how much he adores his monkey. Sparky has also been loving the snow a little too much. We have about a foot of snow and she could not be happier. I will include some pictures for you to see her crazy eyes. I’ve noticed that Dad has been spending a lot more time with the dogs since you’ve been gone. I think it’s keeping his mind off of everything. Weirdly, I think it’s the best gift you could have given him despite him “never wanting dogs.” I was scrolling through my Facebook photos the other day and I found a photo of you and me together. You never liked being in photos so it’s rare to have one of us together. I forgot about that photo. We were having a picnic at the lake hou...

  Dear Mom, It’s been a hard two months without you. It feels like forever and yesterday all at the same time. The phone call I had been dreading will forever stick with me, but I want you to know that I will be alright. I know that you were in a lot of pain and fought for as long as you could. You taught me a lot about strength and that is something that will get me through this. I keep reminding myself that the pain will lessen and good days will come. I am writing this blog to keep you updated on our lives. Maybe to bring some closure and maybe to help some others who are mourning the loss of a parent.  You’ve missed a lot of life updates in these past two months so I’ll give you a quick rundown. Liv got engaged to Piotr and is planning her wedding for September. Laurie bought a new house in Denver and has a big backyard for Stella. Lisa’s boys went back to school and are able to attend in-person classes. Dad got his first covid-19 vaccine so you don’t have to worry about h...